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Thursday, November 30, 2006

masturbation and porn

A reader emailed me a link to a Beautiful Agony clip, asking if the woman portrayed resembled me when I masturbate. Here's the link.

http://google.videoblog.ath.cx/video/98

I would have to say no in that I almost never have multiple orgasms like this woman seems to have, and I don't wear make-up or have such pornstar hair, or such a lovely tattooed arm. Also, I'm louder. Otherwise, yes, there are similarities!

I have been masturbating to orgasm regularly since I was 10. As a kid, I liked masturbating in the bathtub, letting the water run over my clit. I took a lot of baths....

I masturbated in bed also, rubbing my clit with the middle finger of my right hand, inserting something into me only rarely. Clit stimulation was key, and still is.

I never used porn as a child or teen. Well, an ex's dad had Playboys that I looked at, but it wasn't until I was 17 that I saw a Hustler and was pretty shocked.

Nowadays, of course, I like amateur porn a great deal and see a great deal of it online. I see mostly porn of one woman and one man together, or some combination of women and men. Two men with one woman is a favorite.

I also like gay porn. I enjoy seeing men masturbate, especially when they make a lot of moans as they come.

I like when there's a loving caress or loving words that pass between a couple. Kissing, especially men kissing! Strange or naughty words interest me as well, what someone says when they're coming. Sounds more than anything--I enjoy seeing the motions people make and penetration, but I would enjoy porn even if I were completely blind, because the cries and groans get me off more than anything.

I like seeing many men with one woman. I have never seen porn enacting rape fantsies, which actually might be too scary since the viewer wouldn't have complete assurance that what they were seeing was pretend, but if this were well done, I would really enjoy it.

I love real breasts, makeuplessness, women with body hair, all different kinds of cocks from small to large, uncircumcised and circumcised. Sincere-looking hands, sweet glances, large hands that caress someone's waist, when a couple is holding hands as they fuck, anyone touching anyone's hair.

On the other side of the spectrum, turn-offs are men in socks, anyone's wrist watches, high heels (though I suppose if the men were in high heels, I might like that), music, animal abuse, and any kind of pain beyond good-natured spankings.

I like good-natured spankings. In porn and in real life.

Anyway, lately, porn has become more of a regular part of our shared sex life. A couple days ago, he wanted to watch some, and I was completely interested. So we sat at my computer and masturbated together. It felt intimate, normal, friendly, very hot.

When I had had enough and needed to come really bad, we went to bed and fucked with all the enthusiasm of half-crazed drooling freaks, which is definitely enjoyable, and it was deeply satisfying, how slick my cunt was, and how our inhibitions were nonexistent from the long period of intense arousal and watching so many other uninhibited people. We come, make one another come, witness it, live it, and are filled with peace. It was an hour or two well-spent.

I'm slowly getting over the twinge of guilt--just the intimation of guilt, like I should feel guilty. I will ask if it's okay, what I like, and he comforts me.

4 Comments:

At Thursday, November 30, 2006 2:56:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Nice post...it was interesting to see how you started masturbating. We all find our own ways growing up, don't we? Nicely done :)


EE

 
At Thursday, November 30, 2006 9:02:00 PM, Blogger Krysta said...

I adore porn!

It's what the internet is for, after all.

Anyway, I'll probably be writing something along these lines myself soon, so I won't spoil my masturbation techniques for you here.

 
At Friday, December 01, 2006 11:53:00 AM, Anonymous shelley said...

I think some porn can be an enhancement but be careful of letting it become a way of life. I have read extensively on this subject and it seems porn is the cornerstone of sexual addiction. SOME people can SOMETIMES become so engrossed in porn that real sex with real people fails to excite them. I know a man to whom this very thing has happened. He has built a prison of pornography for himself.

 
At Friday, December 08, 2006 7:52:00 AM, Blogger greenlacewing said...

Krysta, I'm still waiting for your masturbation post. ;)

EE, thanks for your praise.

Sheley, thanks for thinking of my well-being.

 

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